Egg Retrieval and IVF Update

Last week, my scans were showing 11 follicles. I went in for egg retrieval on Wednesday morning 10/5 and was a bit disappointed to be told as soon as I came out of anesthesia that they had retrieved 8. 

Yesterday, we anxiously waited all day for an update on those 8. At the end of the day, I was sent this email:

Hi,
Out of 8 eggs, 7 were mature and 5 fertilized. Please be in Newport office suite 130 on 10/8/2016 at 10am. Dr. Frederick will review/update then and possibly do the transfer.

My heart sank. Five? What happened to the others? Perhaps they weren't normal, as egg quality is an issue for me. They certainly would have fertilized if they had the capability, because they used ICSI.

For our first IVF, 7 were retrieved and we had 3 on day 3.
For our second IVF, 10 were retrieved. Of those, 8 were mature and all fertilized. Yet still, on day 3 we only had 2 that were normal. The other six had two polar bodies or were not dividing/replicating. Two, from 8. That means that 5 could give us...none.

But we just need one good embryo.

And so, we wait. Our little embies will not be checked on today. We will not know until our appointment tomorrow if we have any. Yes, there is a very real possibility that we will not have any. Many people have left encouraging comments on my instagram and had several embryos with similar numbers. But my history has me nervous. 

But as worried as I am, I am also an eternal optimist. Already seaching Pinterest for pregnancy announcements that include the big sister.